Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Forgetfulness? or denial?

Why, how is it that I always forget who he truly is?
I constantly see the good, so I have hope knowing he can be a better person... then, there is always something. Ass like actions using girls like their feelings dont matter, and this time it wasn't me... actually the last few times it wasn't me yet it was. Not only does he lie to these girls to get in their pants but he always turns to me and wants the same. Wants to cuddle, wants me to be there, wants to "flirt" as he calls it aka toucy feely. And the truth I always forget is how aggressive he gets when he is refused something he wants. I refuse him because I'm starting to wisen up... the only thing I'm still dumb to is being his friend.
I hate that I continue to see the good, so I continue to stick thru the crap. I always have higher hopes for people. This isn't just with him, but almost all of my friendships. I'm starting to think "Geez, I sure know how to pick 'em" Sigh.

I see the bad too, I get frustrated by it... and even when it stands out way more and more often than the good.... somehow I still forget it. I forget the person he really is now.
It doesn't matter how much good is in someone, if they aren't choosing to live in that... then it doesn't make them a good person. You can't ignore the wrong that people inflict just because their is hope for the good in them.

I hear this, I know this... but my actions aren't following my mind. I know so much that I can't seem to make my body follow thru with. I hate this, this lesson I have to go thru over and over and over and over again until I get it right.

AUGHCK!! He could be a good person but what he is doing is wrong so he is not being a good person, therefore right now he is NOT a good person. Hes a bad guy that doesn't care about others.

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