Just STOP it!

I need to stop doing this... 

Being so jealous cuz I know you'll hang with an ex 

or some other girl you don't care about.

But I always hear about it later. You hang with them

but run to me. 

You run to me, 

but don't want me as anything more. 

I hate that I want you, listen to you, put up with your crap

and yet can never have you. 

What I hate most is...

My head logically says

"It's done."

"Move on."

but unfortunately my heart doesn't follow. 

But who cares right??

He said he wanted to hang with me saturday, but now I have to work. He had fun things planned for us. I told him "I have to work, maybe next weekend." 

He says "I don't wanna do it twice in a row." 

I said "Twice? How?"

He says  "I'll find someone else to go with me."

This drives me wild. SO WILD! And I hate it. I need to stop. I need to let him go. I need to stop thinking about who he will take. We probably shouldn't even be friends, cuz I really am not sure how to handle these situations. Being head over heels for him while listening to his relationship dramas. It needs to stop. Sigh.