(A new blog, a fresh start because more than anything, I need a place where I am not judged. Told I'm wrong or to get over it. I need a place of full freedom and discovery of my emotions cuz honestly, emotions are so confusing sometimes and frankly can SUCK! So here I am, ... to share with you and hopefully have self discovery along the way.)
My Story- another girl hurt by a guy trying to find her way back to herself.
I've overcome quite a bit and grown so much since previous blogs, journal writing, and even prayer I'll admit, but I'm still strung along in confusion as this guy can't make up his mind what he wants from me and I'm still stuck on wanting him, but unable to say anymore than I have.
We don't get along, can't communicate for the life of us, and yet we love hanging out and exploring places together. We can't do enough together but have had to much of each other. He's like my best friend, and he tells everyone else that we have a special connection... honestly I'm still waiting on this connection, cuz while everyone else sees that he treats me so different than he has any other girl... I still see myself as just another girl.
In Reality, nothing will probably ever work out between us again. But I have this memory of the good that exceeds the bad and all that he has taught me keeps me yearning for him.
We are both stuck. Me on the potential of who he can be, and him on caring for me soo deeply that he constantly takes care of me and doesn't know why.
Will either of us grow out of being stuck? And if so, which direction will we go?
Guess we'll learn as the story continues in the unlived future.
This is a story about her confuzed heart, which is really a blog about mine.
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